.. ][ Queen Mar ][ ..

A new blog

2007-09-28T10:49:00.000-07:00

Crated a new blog wanna check it :p ?
this is the link .. =D
http://queenmar.wordpress.com/

Leave comments they make me Happy .. =D

A n!ce day at Last

2007-09-05T06:41:00.000-07:00

School started from three days and this is the forth day .. The first day sucked and by the way , am still having some problems in my sleep .. !__! .. but today was a nice day , first I bought a laptop yesterday [ it's not mine , but it's with me all the time so what's the difference ] anyhow where was I ? .. ya , so I bought the laptop I've been dreaming of from along time ..

Today the English teacher told us that we need a Boss for our class and an Assistant so .. she chose some girls and we had to vote , the girls whom the teacher had chosen could vote , but no one can vote for herself [ however we all thought it was such a selfish thing to do ] plus one girl could vote for more than one girl I was one of the girls whom the teacher had chosen .. and my name was on the top of the List , but don't forget that we were the ones to choose , cause WE had to vote so my name being on the top of the List meant nothing , our class is made of 26 girls [ by the way we weren't last year we are just because - el-edara jem3atna wya e-9aff e-thany -] any how 18 girl voted for me .. you know ? seeing them raising their hands and choosing me was such a happiness , and hey guess what my BEST FRIEND had the same number of votes that I had .. and that number was the largest number so the girls chose the Boss and her Assistant and they chose me the Boss .. that was such an honer .. I mean I was so happy ..

Well I Finally had a n!ce day .. I really needed it !! ..

school's starting after two days and am not ready .. !__!

2007-08-30T16:17:00.000-07:00

I have many things I wanna write about .. but I don't know how to start .. OK first school is starting after two days .. and i still haven't finished shopping for school .. and I can't
do anything tomorrow cause were goin' to my grand ma's house because we'll go to the sea on a Family Trip .. and we won't return from there before Saturday .. and there is something on my mind which is so0o bugging me and I wanna talk to someone about it so badly .. but I don't have anyone .. but am gonna see my Best Friend soon [ I hope ] and am gonna talk until i can't find more words to say .. you know I really wanna go to school , I actually miss school , but am not ready yet to go back to [ el-medresah w-shgaha -wel-emt7anat w-3war rasha w-el-shahadat w-hamhaa ] .. !__!

El-computer 5arbaaan :'(

2007-07-23T15:33:00.000-07:00

i know I haven't write anything from a very long time but who cares .. i mean no pass on my blog u know & it's kinda annoying to write but not to have anyone read .. u know but thats not the real reason why I haven't write for such a long time .. it's just that my cousins came from Qatar so I didn't had much time .. & after that the computer [ 5arraf ] . so it's not working so the only way to sign in is my sister's labtop .. so i don't really have much time .. & i gotta go ..

am confused !! !__!

2007-06-20T11:41:00.000-07:00

There are many stuff happening and am so confused , I mean I have to go & take my report personally cause my mom has work and Nada got her driving liaisons today ... so Nada will take me tomorrow to school and am scared to death , my best cousin came today from Qatar with her two sisters and her sister's husband but she went to Al-Ain because her sister's husband's family lives there so I won't see her today and not even tomorrow we might see them the day after tomorrow and my other best cousin [ lol ] will arrive tomorrow .. yes I am happy to see them all , but I don't want them to see me while my mom is shouting at me ... you know it's kind of embarrassing ... ooh god , ... I seriously think that am gonna cry !__!

A pesron who listens to what you don't say

2007-06-19T13:31:00.000-07:00

I want to ask you a question .. , have you ever trusted someone from the first impression ?? well , if you ever did that it's not the very right thing to do ..

I mean some people thinks that they have BEST FRIENDS who will never ever let them down , but that's not true .. I mean you can't trust anyone and you can't consider anyone a best friend .. I mean you can't consider a person who doesn't get you at all a best friend , cause a best friend is who listens to what you don't say .. I mean people nowadays just think that if they liked a person from the first look it's OK to trust him ..... , and that's just so not true .. cause people need years to start getting onto each other .... I mean it will take me at least two years to start trusting someone , and trusting someone is not a simple thing that unfortunately most of people nowadays think it is ... cause it hurts so much to tell someone your secret to sleep and you are so sure he will never tell anyone about it , but wake up in the morning on the sounds of your secret ...

I truly believe that any human being will never do such a thing and will never trust anyone so easily and if he did I bet that he will regret for every word he said to that person , it's not that am against having close friends or anything ... what am against is what people or most of them actually are doing which is trusting people who are so not trustworthy .. I mean it's so important to have a close friend in this life whom you can go back to when you're down .. and it's relaxing also .. to know that when ever this life gives you her back there is always this honest person who cares about you and loves you .. but it's also important to have the ability to know whom to trust and whom not to .. cause as I told you before it's not a simple thing at all , I have a cousin who used trust everyone .. she is so cute and kind but the problem is that she thinks that every one is like her .. that everyone is good and it's OK to trust them as long as you feel good while your sitting with them .. , but feeling good is not enough , no absolutely not ... cause some people are very good at acting they can make you open your heart and speak up .. and unfortunately your heart just starts believing them accordingly because of the very nice way they act in ..

again I say it's a very normal thing to have a best friend .. but that depends on the person you've chosen to be your best friend ...

A Study in Scarlet

2007-06-15T16:09:00.000-07:00

Every 1 r sleepin' , but am not , [sho aswee mesh na3sanah] ... am bored , am alone .. no 1 is online .. my cousin was .. but want the truth he is silly .. heh [ 7leeela ] .. so since no 1 is online , I thought 2 write somethin' though I dnt rly have anythin' 2 say , but lets try ....
Today we went 2 Dubai .. [ Ibn Ba6oo6ah Mall ] ... me , my sis , my Dad & Mom .. we [ me & Nada ] lost mom & dad several timez .. but [ hatha shay 3adi estwa ] & bcoz Nada luv books we went to [ magrudy's ] I hope the spellin' is right !! lol any how Nada took a rly nice story [ The Count of Monte Cristo ] ... & I took a story I have no idea about , but it's 4 Arthur [ Conan Doyle ] it has 2 b gd , I guess , the book's name is [ A Study in Scarlet ] .... it's 1 of Sherlock Holmes stories am rly intrested .. ;) .. & at the End of the day Nada discovered that there is a [ magrudy's] in AD in [ El-W7dah Mall ] & of course she is the most happy gurl on this planet coz she won't have 2 go 2 Dubai anymore 2 buy books ....

mood : super Bored [ ufffffffffffffffffffffff ]

alone 4 45 minutes !!!

2007-06-13T10:13:00.001-07:00

I rly had fun 2day .. I woke up at 1:00 pm that's when I received a phone call from my Twin [ she's not rly my Twin but we used 2 b so close 1 day .. , it's not that anything' happened between us or somethin' , no not at all it's just that she went 2 another skool ... :'( , anywayz this is not the right time 2 cry no no no it's not ... ] OK , where did I stop ? ya I received a phone call from her & she told me that she's goin' 2 the park with the Gurlz .. & that she will b there at 5:00 , just 2 let u know yesterday another frend of mine asked me 2 visit her but my mom refused the whole thing & told me : " dnt ask me again coz I will nvr let u go " ... I was rly sad .. I mean it's so unfair , she canceled the visit anywayz .. heh [ 7oobaaty :p] ... so after I talked with my Twin I called my mother & told her that the Gurlz r goin' 2 the park & that I wanna go also .. & she let me go .. & hey she also accepted takin' me 2 the park .. that wat I rly didn't expect coz she usually come from work .. eat lunch & sleep , but 2day she didn't .. any how I got dressed & went 2 the park .. I was there at 5:45 & saw no 1 from the Gurlz I was lookin' 4 them when the mob I took with me ranged .. it was Nada .. she asked me if my frendz were there or not .. I answered her that ya they were there .. , I didn't want them 2 wait coz they were goin' to the Marina Mall so I said wat I said .. can u imagine I waited 4 somebody 2 come 4 45 minutes that's when I called El-Reem & she told me that she will b there in 10 minutes .. after she closed .. my Twin called & said that she arrived ... [ w-hny 3ad ana estlamt-ha ] .. I told her how much I hate her .. [ ba3deen fakart asallem 3leeha - lol - ]
we walked until [ El-Reem 6el3at fee wayehna ] lol we played & had fun then Nada called & told me that they r out ... & I returned bk home ... & that's it !! wat a day hah ??!!

Best wishes :p

What a shame !!

2007-06-09T10:12:00.000-07:00

What a shame I can't remember when was the Last Time I saw you :( .. What a shame I can't remember these amazing words of this lovely song you used to repeat when ever you saw me .. What a shame I can see a copy of you where ever I go , but can never see the real you .. What a shame I can't remember the places you used to take me .. What a shame I can't remember the car you used to drive ..

What a shame I Lost this little pinky bag you bought me .. What a shame you went before you buy for me the Bird you promised me to buy .. What a shame I keep wishing on every Birthday to see you again [ even if it was in my dreams] , but my wish never come true .. What a shame I never had the chance to say to you how much I loved you .. What a shame I have to see this innocent child you left behind you and see in his eyes the same look you used to see me in and hope that one day I'll see your eyes .. What a shame I can't tell you how much I miss you .. What a shame that I keep on staring at your picture for hours and know that I can do nothing but cry on the wonderful Times we spent together .. What a shame when ever our family gathers I wish you were here .. with us , and between us , sharing us every second of our lives , every minute , every hour and every day ..

What a shame you went before saying : " Bye Marwaty " .. ya .. I remember , you used to call me Marwaty ... well I guess this is the only thing that I still believe that neither you nor I will forget .. and I will stay here waiting for the moment I hear you calling me again ..

My Only Sister

2007-06-08T05:00:00.000-07:00

I can say that I have the most amazing sister in this world .... and if choosing our sisters was an optional thing I know I wouldn't have chosen another sister :)Well she might bug me sometimes , but I have to admit it , I like the way she does it .. and it's not that I don't bug her back !! hhh [ but walla not as much as she do ] OK want the truth ?! she is annoying sometimes , but I think it's part of her personality .. I mean it's too late to change it now !!! and it's not completely her fault , it's something in our blood , you can say a Family Tradition .. looool.
Nada ... Hmmm .. [ what can I say about her ] she is so Georges and the most warm-hearted person I've ever seen , she can be pleased so easily , she is so kind and she is soOoOoOo suitable in her place I mean I don't think that I would accept any sister but her .
I remember my last Birthday , I was in my grandma's house .. I woke up in the morning and thought that every one will remember my Birthday ... , but my thoughts were completely wrong .. no one .. I mean no one remembered my Birthday .. even my mom !! .. :( she always say that she remembered it and even if she didn't her mobile alarm would remind her ... but the point is not whether she remembered my Birthday or not .. she didn't even bother saying : [ Happy Birthday ] to me , but this year my Birthday was completely different .. I mean my BEST sister and my ONLY one took me to the cinema and we saw a really nice movie [ Pirates of the Caribbean 3 ] I really had fun .. and that was her gift [ what a nice one ha ? ] well it was I guess my BEST gift [ my parents shall never read this cause if they did they will be so upset cause they really did their best to make my Birthday this year so special and make me forget what happened last year and I really appreciate what they did - Don't you just Love My Family ? -] :p.
I really enjoy being around my sister .. she always make me feel better .. don't know how she do it , but I know that it always work .
Don't you guys love my sister :) I really really do ...

A Note : Don't know what made me write this ... , but I guess she's gonna like it *Hope so*

Last Day at School

2007-05-31T05:26:00.000-07:00

Today was our last day at school , of course I was screaming and shouting all the day [ la tloomoony el-wanasah w-ma tswee ] I still can't believe enny eftakeet men el-mdrsaaaaaaaaaaaaah w-hmoomha - any how .. today we had a math exam , don't ask me how was it cause I don't really know how good or bad I made in it !!! .. well nothing really happened after the exam .. except that my old friend Kamlosh came to say hi since we didn't see her from nearly a year [ she is in el-wrood school I guess ] I was really happy to see her but am not so sure she was !! :( but I don't give a damn cause [ elly ma ybany ma abah ] .. well , I guess I had a little fun today , we played with water ana w-3lyooh wallah I will miss this girl she is the best ..
Some of the girls were sad cause it was the last day at school but I couldn't imagine that El-Reem was crying cause of any damned reason , I mean .. how could she Rowen her last day at school for any stupid reason ???!!!!!
Girls don't get it wrong ok !! .. it's not that [ enny baftak menkom or something ] , but it is the last day at school I have to be happy .. I mean , .. wallah I'll miss you guys soOoOoOoOo much more than any one can imagine ... , but still I can't prevent myself from being so happy you know .. its not by my hand !!!!! ..

Any how wallah wish u all a very niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiice summer .. I'll miss you guys *kisses*

Am Bored

2007-05-25T02:56:00.000-07:00

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No one can stand me :(

2007-05-24T09:26:00.000-07:00

Do you know this terrible feeling .. to you feel that no one can stand you ?!.. well if you don't ..let me tell you , it hurts a lot ... to feel that your stupid , silly , boring , annoying & to have someone who always agree with that ?! ..

I mean is it my fault if I'm me .. [ ya3ny walla ] I didn't choose to be this boring , ugly , stupid & [ sa5eeeefah ] girl that I am now .. [ ya3ny ] what am I supposed to do .. kill myself ? I really want to , but the only problem is that I don't want to end up in HELL
!!

And the most hurting thing in this whole issue is that I always take peoples silly comments with a smiley face , not because am afraid of them or something like this .. I just don't want them to think that am a sensitive girl who cries cause of the most ridicules reasons .. , actually I don't want to be sensitive .. I hate being sensitive , it makes me feel so weak .. and I hate the terrible feeling of weakness ..

Ok I know am a big mouth & I speak a lot , but why do people always shush me when I speak .. I mean I never shush people .. cause I really think it's inappropriate .. cause people need to hear each other .. I mean if today you refused to listen to a person who really needs support from you .. you won't have a person who will listen to you tomorrow ..

An advice : so [ if you want a friend .. be a friend ] & if you want people to hear you hear them .. And stop shushing for god's sake

Best wishes * kisses *

A rat in our class room >_<

2007-04-27T13:02:00.000-07:00

This mornin' was a very normal mornin' .. until our first lesson started .. it was scince [ yaaaaaak ] any wayz [ just 2 let u know my disk is near the cupboard ] so .. the teacher came & told us 2 bring our books & go 2 the lab , so I was lookin' 4 my book when i heard my frend shosho screamin' .. I didn't care coz u [ want the truth she screams a lot ] but after a second I heard Noota shoutin' .. then I was very sure that they found somethin' scary & disgusting so I started screamin' & shoutin' ... Noota ran out the class room & she was scared 2 death :" it's a rat .. it's a rat !!!!!! " she shouted , & all the gurlz were tryin' 2 get out of the class room without knowin' wat's goin' on [ that includes me ] .. now all of us were out in the corridor makin' a very noisy & loud screams & u know wat ?!..... grade 12 were havin' an exam .. [ a final exam ].. lo0o0o0o0olz

So after the borin' lesson we returned from the lap & tried 2 pretend that nothin' happened , but my frend was pushin' the teachers table carelessly & the rat came ruuni' towards the door where all the gurlz were standin' .... I mean can u imagine the situation ??!!! .. I saw the disgusting rat with my own eyes ... eeeeew >_< .. it was brown 4 god's sake !!! ... u won't imagine how we were ready 2 die just 2 get out of the class room ... , even the rat was scared 2 c us runnin' like that ... lo0olz [ poor rat ] ..
After all that screamin' & shuotin' we were able 2 find another class room 4 the next lesson & we returned 2 our class room after the rat was killed ..

wish u the best *kisses*

A surprise party

2007-03-08T09:31:00.000-08:00

U can c I wrote 2 sad topics .. , but a frend of mine asked me once :"y don't u write about -happiness- which every 1 is lookin' 4 ?" .. I answered her that am not in the mood 2 write about happiness ... , but u know wat .. am gonna try , may b it will make me feel better ... So .. I don't really know wat reminded me with this .. but .. it was a very nice day that I will never 4 get .. and I really wanna share this memory with u guys .. it was our last day at school 28-5-2005 - in 6th grade - my frendz asked me 2 walk with them in the schools playground - I don't walk a lot - [want the truth i knew that some thin' unusual will happen] but I wasn't so sure .. any wayz .. I went with my frendz ........... after a while another frend came & asked me 2 go with her 2 our classroom [now I was very sure that they were on somethin' , but I didn't say a word] I went with them ..... GUESS WAT ??!! IT WAS A SURPRISE PARTY .. how nice hah ..... well it was so0o0o0o0o0o nice from them .. i just feel that I wanna cry .. , but dnt worry am not goin' 2 .. they brought me this delicious cake and brought me lo0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0ots of gifts .. and it was an amazin' party .., although there were no candles [lo0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0olz] but it was really perfect ,I guess those were the best moments of my life ..
wish u the Best *kisses*

ITS SOO HARD ....

2007-03-03T22:32:00.000-08:00

I have some questions that I never had the chance 2 ask any 1 ... so wat do u think if I share it with u guys ??!!! ..

Do u know how hard it is 2 know that u can't have the most things u wanna have in ur life ?! ..
Do u know how hard it is 2 know that life is full of difficulties & 2 know that u don't have this honest person that u can put ur head on his shoulder when ur down ?! ..
Do u know how hard it is 2 feel that ur isolated from the world .. to feel that everybody is cool & fine , but ur not ?!
Do u know how hard it is 2 feel that u wanna cry so badly .. 2 feel that u wanna speak up but u just can't ?!
Do u know how hard it is 2 care about every 1 ....... ,but 2 not have any 1 2 care about u ?! ..
Do u know how hard it is 2 hear other ppl .. , but u just never have the chance 2 let ppl hear u or let them know u better?! ..
Do u know how hard it is 2 let every 1 judge u & 2 hear these stupid comments on ur way of speakin' or in the way u act & even in the way u dress up ?! [ ITS SOOOOOO UNFAIR ] ...
Do u know how hard it is 2 not have the courage 2 face them & tell them that wat they r doin' is botherin' u ?! ..
And do u know how hard it is 2 know that u just can't live ur life the way u want & 2 know that the only thing u want 2 happen is impossible ?! ..

U must have said : " wat's wrong with her ?!! ".......... never mind .. , I wish u all a very nice day and a normal 1 .. *kisses*
[ LOVE U ALL ]

Never thought !!....

2007-02-23T07:36:00.000-08:00

Never thought that u will b so far .. Never thought that I will never have the chance 2 c u again .. never thought that u will b gone 1 day ..
I have a poem that I wanna share with u ..

تخيل .. تخيل .. تخيل !! اليوم هو منك قريب .. هو بس الحبيب ..
و لو ما تشوفه عالاقل توصلك أخباره ولو من بعيد ..
بس تخيل لو مرة بس انه رحل..
فجاة ودون اي سابق انذار ..
من الدنيا اختفى..
ابعييييييد .. راااااح بعييد ..
لمكان ما منه رجوع ..لظلام ما له اي حدود لدنيا الكل بها موعود ..
خلاص ...راح عنك و خذاه الموت .. وخلاك وحيد ..
تايه .. متألم و منصدم ..
يا ترى تقدر تتخيل في ذاك اليوم حالك؟!..
بتصرخ .. بتصيح .. و من الصدمة بتسكت..
وقلبك من الداخل جريح!!..
حياتك بتمضي أكيد بس "دونه"..
أيامك بتعيشها صحيح .. لكن دون صوته و عيونه ..
تخيل شو اللي ممكن تفقده ..
حبه.. حنانه ..حزنه .. ابتسامه .. عطفه .. اهتمامه .. شوقه .. ملامه .. طيبه .. قسوته .. عناده .. ذكاءه ..كله ..
و تخيل شو اللي ممكن تخسره ؟!..
شمسك .. بدرك ..صبحك .. ليلك .. عمرك .. قلبك .. كلك ..
يا ترى بتلوم نفسك لأنك في يوم قسيت و خليته ؟!..
يمكن جرحته و لا راضيته ..أو حتى في يوم تناسيته ..
دام هو جنبك اليوم اول تحبه دوم ..
تري كل غالي لك .......... يمكن ما تشوفه بعد اليوم

So wat do u think?!..I know some of u may say : " OOOOH BORING !! " .. , but u know wat 2 me its not ..it means lot ..
Do u know who am I talking about .. am talking about some 1 who owns a part of me .. who is always in my head .. some 1 who is so far .. I sometimes talk 2 him .. but I never reach him .. do u know how hard 2 talk 2 some 1 u really love , but u just can't reach him .. and the worse is 2 know that u can do nothing .. knowing that this thing is so much bigger than u .. and its no more in ur hands .. want the truth it never was ..

Wish the best 2 every 1 ..and if u have some 1 u miss so badly [just like I do] .. I hope u will have the chance 2 meet him at last ...